
My apologies for taking so long to update, but I'm sure you'll all understand that I've been a
little busy lately. Anyway, he's finally arrived!! Aaron got back here on Friday, January 2 and my induction was scheduled for Monday, January 5 at 6:30 am. Needless to say, Sunday night Aaron and I were like two kids waiting for Santa Claus and really didn't get that much sleep.
I was admitted into the hospital and luckily my nurse was a girl I went to school with from elementary school through high school. Everything started out well, I seemed to be reacting to the dilation pill, but I didn't get a new dose except for every 5 hours. I got my first dose at 8:00 am, then my next at 1:00 pm and at 6:00 pm we were hoping that my body had taken over and my cervix had dilated a lot. Nope, I was still at 2 cm at 6:00 pm. However, my contractions had started to go from nonexistent pain to uncomfortable to slightly painful to REALLY painful. Around 8:00, I was given some kind of pain killer in my IV and it made me feel so much better. It basically made me really light-headed and I just felt like sleeping.
The rest is all blurry to me because I was basically in and out the whole time, but the contractions got bigger and more uncomfortable and the only position I could get comfortable in was my side. I ended up sleeping most of the night with Aaron passed out in the chair next to me. At some point in the night, I was given an oxygen mask because, as I was told, the baby's heart rate was dropping because of the pain medication. If I hadn't been on my second dose of pain meds, I would have probably been more freaked out than I was.
Aaron finally decided to take a shower sometime around 3:30 am since it had been almost 24 hours since he'd had one, and of course the doctor came in while he was in the shower. After 20 hours of labor, the doctor said we needed to do a c-section, RIGHT AWAY. I was scared because I knew that couldn't mean good news. I panicked and thought they were taking me right then and asked pitifully if they could at least wait until my husband got out of the shower. But of course, they had plenty of things to do before I could go down to surgery so Aaron didn't miss it. As far as I remember, they upped my epidural and rolled me downstairs. I'd had a birth plan all prepared before I got to the hospital and in case of a c-section, I wanted to be awake and I wanted my hands to be free so I could hold my baby after he was born. However, apparently that wasn't best for my situation because I was constantly falling asleep because of the pain killer and my arms were strapped to boards coming out from the operating table. The sheet was hung directly in front of my face so I couldn't see anything at all. I slept through the entire c-section and only woke up when the doctor was pulling the baby out of my stomach. It felt like someone was pushing on my belly. I knew the baby was ok because he immediately started screaming and crying as soon as they pulled him out. Aaron was seated behind me to the left and was holding my shoulder throughout the whole procedure. The nurses showed Aaron the baby for only a second but he didn't get to hold him. I strained my neck to try to get a glimpse of him but I couldn't see anything. I was getting upset because I just wanted to see him and make sure he was ok. Aaron told me later that the baby was still pretty blue when they pulled him out and I guess they wanted to warm him up before anyone could hold him. After Aaron left the operating room and they were closing my incision, I thought I heard the doctors talking about the cord being wrapped around the baby's neck, but I was so out of it, I couldn't be 100% sure. We found out later that the cord actually was wrapped around his neck and that's why the doctor had to do the c-section. I guess they didn't tell us before so we wouldn't panic.
Next I was wheeled to some recovery area that just felt like a hallway to me. I was shaking uncontrollably because the anesthesia was wearing off and my mouth was completely dry. All I wanted to do was have a sip of water and to go to my postpartum room and see my baby. I think I stayed down there for about an hour and a half and still couldn't stop shaking. The nurses kept putting warm blankets on me but I wasn't cold. That was the most helpless I've ever felt. Lying on a gurney, completely numb from the waist down, cotton mouth and shaking so badly that I could barely speak.
Finally I got to come up to my hospital room and see Aaron and my family. The baby was still in the nursery and I hadn't seen him yet. Aaron went to the nursery to take pictures and we opened them on my laptop. Those were the first images I had of my baby. I almost started crying because I just wanted to hold him and see him in person. Can you believe I didn't get to see him until over 2 hours after my surgery? Once I held him, everything was so much better.
All in all, Aaron and I stayed in the hospital until January 8 and we were so glad to get out of there! The staff was incredibly sweet and helpful, but we were just ready to get home and be a little family until Aaron had to leave. Luckily we did leave with a few new little inside jokes and lots of good memories. For instance, when I was on my morphine drip the day after the c-section, Aaron asked how I was feeling... and I replied, "I feel like a dirty pencil." Yes, morphine is a powerful drug, folks. And I'm not sure what that pain medication was that they gave me before the epidural but it was so good that I told the anesthesiologist that he was the Magic Man.
We appreciated everyone who came to visit, sent congratulatory text messages and phone calls and all the well wishers. I want to especially thank my Dad, Mary Alice and Morrie for being there the entire time and for checking in on us as much as you did. I know I was out of it most of the time, but I do remember every time you came into the delivery room to see how we were doing. I love you all and Aaron and I couldn't have done this without you.
We are so happy that Patrick is finally here and we get to share him with all of you!


